Actually, for long time ago, I know that I'm a selfish stupid girl. I'm always act like a jerk and let anyone to use me as they want. Maybe that's why I can't never express want my real feelings into words.
I was a bad tempered person, and now I'm still like that even though now I can be more patient and control my temper. I met a friend, who just like me at the past. He don't really care if people make use to him, because he don't even know that he's being used by them. I'm pity and mad at him without reason. And now I know why, because I mad about myself that can't be mature after all.
I just scared that the past will come back after me. I just afraid that maybe I can't believe a person called 'friend' anymore.
I want to change. But, can I really change?